to the one that i sat with on the bus, i remember when we met. i had no seat on the bus and you told me that i could sit with you. on my first day of school. the actual first day. first grade and all. you were my best friend for so long. sometimes i look back and remember that. i love that you were there for me throughout elementary school. i really did need friends back then, maybe more than i need them now. the first time i saw porn was at your house haha. you asked me if i wanted to see something and then turned it on. i even remember what was going on. man was that girl a slut lol. out in the desert by a stream, and in the hottub! i can't believe i remember that. you kept switching it to blues clues whenever you thought that someone was coming. then one year at your birthday party i told a scary story and everyone there freaked out and told me to stop. i think one girl cried haha. we went to a fair at your church or something too. and my first concert ever was with you. jump 5 at indian creek. i really do miss you sometimes. we were so close for so long. and then you decided that you were going to be called liz instead of elizabeth and you even got adopted and changed your last name without telling me. i don't know what happened to you. but that is how i distinguish between the elizabeth that i knew and the liz that you are. sorry to tell you, but you are somewhat of a slut now. i hope that i am wrong. i hope that you aren't. but when you act how you do i just don't know how i could think anything else. you've certainly gained yourself a reputation. and what happened with melissa and that guy that she liked her freshman year. we were in eigth grade and you went to homecoming and made out with him? how skanky was that. i think that was when i stopped thinking that there was any part of my friend left in you. you completely changed. more than me i think. and that scares me. i don't know you at all anymore. maybe if i had tried harder to stay closer to you i could have kept you a little the same. you could have kept a small part of yourself. i miss you elizabeth white. come back to me.
