i think that i am done with those letters for now. i wrote quite a few. not sure if or who will read those. other than those that have already read them.
i change this link so much. haha it's so weird now. notetoself was taken so i took inspiration from one of my new favorite bands instead. they would be

You, Me, and Everyone We Know

in case you were wondering. they are pretty great. you should go and check them out. they were in AP's bands to know in 2009. that has to mean something right? i love them. found them before i read that in AP =D i am proud of myself for that.
so i haven't really been talking about what's been going on lately. not since january anyway.
well; i don't think all that much has happened. my grandma is getting married i think. that's probably the biggest one. i think i've changed at least a little. i've gained some weight (i was looking at my new years goals the other day and i think that i actually went the wrong way D=) so i'm going to stay after a few days and work out with lindsay. from the looks of it it is only going to be once or twice a week but that's still something right?
i've been dating dustin for five months. i think that is pretty good. he means oh so much to me. he's graduating pretty soon. yay! oh no! that's how i feel about that.
moving on; my sister is very sick. well not sick enough that she can't move around but she was sick all weekend, went to school yesterday and today but came home sick today and is now going to the doctor to see what is the matter. i do hope that my grandma and robert (her fiance) don't get it too. i worry about her and her sickness.
i just talked about losing weight and now i have opened a new bag of chips. i think i am quite a loser. my brother has been a big pain lately. being extra annoying towards my sister and what not don't you know.
dustin wanted to read his letter. (the everlasting one, if you read it). i don't really want him to. but he can if he wants though. i mean what's the worst that can happen? well i can think of lots of bad things that can happen. i'm such a pessimist. oh well?
school was okay today. i have really just stopped caring in german which is not good at all. 17/50 on the last test. i am going to make that one up. i've gotten bad ones in there before. i really don't care all that much. probably some underlying problem there. but i need to get at least a C- average in that class to go to Europe next year on spring break. so i need to bring it up don't you know.
i just crunched a chip and my dog came running. did she really think that i was calling her?
i need around four thousand big ones to go on that europe trip. if i get half the step father says that he will match it. so i'm going to be mowing lawns and saving up until then. which i don't think i can meet that amount but oh well. i'll just end up with loads of money saved. that's not bad at all so either way it will work out. i am going to use some of it for concert tickets though. so that takes a chunk out of it.
i rather hate it when i get a text from my boyfriend and he says the message wasn't meant for me. makes me feel rather unimportant and ignored. dagnabit. but he can do what he wants. make me feel however he pleases. i would do anything for him. be anything.
OH GOD! i've lost my identity. look at what i just said. that's terrible. that's scary. to think that a boy could make me feel like i would be anything for him. that is just wrong. i shouldn't change for anyone but myself. oh jesus. i need to work on my self esteem i think.
well i think that this is enough of my pointless talk for now. i have things to see and people to burn.
oops. did i say that outloud?