taylor, my (ex)friend, i am sorry that we had that fight. but i'm sure that whatever we were fighting about that i wasn't wrong. all you do is bitch. when you're not bitching you're talking about things that i don't think will happen. i mean, moving in with band members from 30STM just because you ask "them"? honey that is the longest shot of them all. some things you bitch about are okay. like when your mom won't listen to you or won't buy you the stuff you need. or when eddie comes home drunk and just yells at everyone. or your brother getting on your nerves. or a boy dumping you. that's all normal stuff. i can handle that. but it's when you start talking about the life that that you made up in your head that i get worried. we are normal people sweets. normal. we won't ever be part of an exciting world adventure. sure we might have small ones, but nothing like what you make up in your head. i worry about you. and you won't listen to me. at all. that is why i get mad.

i know that you won't read this. you told me to "get out of your life." i plan on doing just that. you have hurt me in the past. more than anyone from across the internet should be able to. you have stolen my best friend from me. ruined our relationship. turned her against me. i still stood by you. i was still there for you when you needed me most.

if this is how you treat the people that care about you i know that i deserve better. i don't deserve to be brushed aside and treated like a yoyo. i will not always come back when you push me away. this time, i think you've got your wish.

i will always care about you. you're like a little sister to me. but i'm sorry. it hurts too much.