i've got my glasses on right now. my eye has been really bothering me lately. and right now they both kinda burn. i think it's from whatever my grandma just sprayed in the room. O.o it doesn't smell too good either.
you know what. i get the chills easily, but not from music. i guess i've just heard so many moving songs i'm becoming immune? who knows.
but the song I'm Not Okay(I Promise) gives me chills whenever i hear it. that band kind of saved me and almost killed me. it's so hard to explain to anyone who actually wants to know the answer. that song, though, made me think that maybe other people understood what was happening with me. like maybe i wasn't the only kid depressed and wanting to hurt themself. that song was also the song that i hurt myself too for a while. /=
i bet no one ever wanted to know that.
i love that song so much. it's just that it bring back a lot of stuff for me whenever i listen to it. mcr isn't just good music to me. it's pretty much my soul written out and put to music. hahahaha. and it's written mainly by a crack head/alcoholic. how sad is that.
oh. it just changed to fall out boy. i just saw them last week with panic at the disco and blink 182. (: they are really amazing. i saw some guys moshing to them. that was pretty entertaining. i thought so anyway. when i think fob i don't think hardcore. maybe that's just me.
"this ain't a scene, it's a goddamn arms race."
i heard that patrick stump got arrested? i never did check it out for myself though. i heard that dj am died today too. that's so depressing. there are a shit ton of celebs dying right now. it's kinda freaking me out. i don't know.

i just turned in an essay for english class about a couple week ago when my dad had some seizures while he was driving.
UGH! i think i am going to either cry and throw up. i wish that i couldn't smell. she just admitted that she stunk up the bathroom. :P

i wish that my boo was here with me. D; i miss his kisses.

i'm so tired. and there is really no point to writing.


goodnight.