dustin,
i love you so much. i am sorry that you have been going through everything that happened to you this year. i know that school has been a struggle for you, and i know that you are considering dropping out. i really hope that you don't, but if you do i will still be here, still loving you. i want your parents to both be happier. i hope that to be happier they don't have to be apart, but if they do then i guess that is better for them. what isn't better for them is your dad up and moving away from everyone that he knows. i really hope that he doesn't do that. maybe you should tell him that we are getting married when i turn eighteen and he will want to stick around for the wedding. :P i don't want you to worry about me going to college and how that might affect us. i know that it will be harder, maybe unbearable, to be away from each other as long as we might have to be, but i see other people doing it right now and i know that we can do it too. i will get a webcam or something and we can have skype dates and everything will be perfect. i love you too much to let a little thing like moving a few hours away keep me away from you. and during this last semester of high school i am going to try and spend as much time with you as possible. i hope to see you at least once a week. i know that doesn't sound like much but it sounds like a lot compared to the last few weeks. i know that you have work and school and i have school but that's okay we can stil do it. and as for the sex that we aren't having, that's okay too. i may want you a lot, but if you aren't comfortable with it then we don't need to be doing it. i don't want you too feel weird around me. i'm not completely comfortable with my body either so i guess that it is for the best. though, just to let you know, that night where we didn't have sex but got so close is one of the sexiest nights that i can remember. it turns me on to think about it. that just proves that we don't have to have sex to keep each other interested. it isn't like we have had that much anyway. i just want you to know that i want to be here for you through everything and that i love you very very much. here's to another year together. (: