tayter tot,
i miss you terribly, i miss terribly who you used to be. i know that you are mostly happy now and i am glad that you are. i know that you are still who you used to be. but you have changed so much and your life is so fast that i can't keep up or fit myself in anywhere. i've told you about it and you seem to think that there will always be a place in your life for me. but i've been calling you and texting you to hang out and you never can, at least not when i can. it doesn't seem like it matters to you that we are losing each other. maybe it doesn't matter to you because you reunited with erica and found cwebb, so you don't need me anymore. i feel like i need you. i looked up to you, for some strange reason. you always seemed like such a strong, genuine person. now i don't know what is going on with you. i feel like cwebb doesn't always treat you as well as he should, and i feel like you shouldn't do drugs as much as you do. but what i think doesn't matter because i'm not even a small part of your life anymore. you used to be my best friend. i used to be comfortable talking to you. now i'm not sure if i'm even going to get a response. i don't know what's happening, but i just want it to stop. i do love you though, and i know that you still possess everything that i love about you. those qualities are just being covered up.